Chapter 8- Rose
Rose was a sweet shy girl dressed in a poofy grey dress. She had a eyepatch with a yellow rose getting from it. Her favorite color was yellow and she loved flowers.. Her hair was long and a beautiful shade of grey. When I first got her I was very much depressed because people were thinking I needed to grow a backbone they thought me crying was wrong being called a baby all the time and other things wasn’t making things any better and soon Rose appeared thinking all she needed was herself. Of course there were other reasons. looking in the mirror I was indeed a skinny girl.
The pain of being told I was too thin and having to keep eating in hopes I’d get fatter I know it didn’t seem like much infact I was told being fat is worse then thin but it was still painful either way. I would eat and eat to the point of wanting to throw up just so that I could make people stop coming at me for my weight but what for? Rose showed those feelings very well. food wasn’t her thing all she could bear to eat was sugar, sweets. she loved cute things too, cute things sweets and art that was all her and more.
I have a nightmare every night of the person I might have use to be. I was the same as I am now. a shy girl but I fell in love with a man. We loved each other very much. I met him on a sunny afternoon and soon he had told me he was in love with me. “Rose” “what’s wrong?...” “I love you please be my girlfriend” “….really?....” “yes” “but why? why would you love an overly emotional girl like me?”
“Because I don’t know how to put this but your amazing just please” “well….alright I kind of like you too” it seemed innocent enough. A man to shower me with roses. “you’re just as beautiful as this Rose and look it’s your favorite color too” he showed me his garden. it was beautiful filled with trees and flowers. “This is amazing!”
“I’m glad you like it… would you like some tea Rose” “of course” I smiled as we ate cookies and drunk tea in that garden but I never would have known that this relationship was about to take a wrong turn real fast. “What are you doing….!” he held me down…the man I loved had that scorn of lust in his eyes.
“When are you going to let me in? huh? I’ve been waiting forever” “I told you no didn’t I’m scared…I don’t want to” “Rose how do you expect to keep a man waiting this long” “well…I don’t think it matters…if you love me you would respect that” “Love? ha I just said that to sweet talk you into being with me…I’m after something more than just love” “Get away from me! you monster!” I fought to break free from his grasp. who would have thought everything we had was just lies.
“come on Rose don’t you know you’ll never get a man acting like that” “funny…I thought I had one…but you’re just a sleezeball! I loved you!” “you women are all alike besides who would believe you Rose?” “Believe me about what?” he pins me and I can’t break free. I was so frightened I begun to cry. “aww…ya know you crying just turns me on even futher….by the way Rose no one’s going to believe that I did this to a girl that looks as ugly as you” “….if I’m so ugly then why do it….you said I was beautiful like a rose”
“You are…” “Then why couldn’t I land you in jail then!” he smiles trailing his fingers down my face. “you see that axe over there? No one will believe you because you won’t have a body to speak the words of it. a beautiful rose always dies and death is an ugly thing Rose” I scream so loud a terrible scream I let out but he muffles them with his strong powerful hands. hands I thought would never hurt me… love is so cruel.
I never wanted to feel those hands again or ever see a man in the flesh ever. The last thing I would see before he grabs me by the hair and holds an axe above me is the dreded nakedness of the man who violated my purity….
Rose was afraid of naked people…I never knew why till she confess to us about the nightmares she has everyday about a man who raped her and murdered her with an axe cutting up her body into pieces and who knows if he was ever caught.
It’s sad how the simple words of I love you could also be the thing to end your life once and for all. But Rose was safe here and finally happy with our family that would only grow larger in size.